SHARE.......14/30(NPM)

Trying to open up and offer my 50% to your 50%
and that's difficult
you see,
all my life, "its been just me, one is the magic number"
adjusting my lifestyle for the presence of another
well this just seems like a invasion of my privacy
a bachelors arrangement of comfort
Even then a invitation to just chill
is immediately becomes a toll placed upon entering
though I want you to stay the night
I know it will change some order in my ways of living
See a change will come to eating dinner
to taking showers
and sexually connecting
this could easily put deformity,
where the next day I don't know my environmental section

suddenly,
life has new meaning,
to me
But I'm not trying to see change
I want to wake up to a routine that has been more
than 30 years before last night starting my early day

Now I have to cater to you.......laying there
my sheets are not the fabric softener smells of downy
the second set of pillows are medium from being once firm and full
the left side of bed, which was always the empty side is warm
not cold
it has a new level of equality adjusted to your shape and weight
clothes not put away
but they lay in that place,
and clutter that space
hairs on my neck being to raise

see....

there goes my routine
got to re arrange my new scene like a movie
feel like I have OCD
but its just
just not my space of untaintedness
Don't get me wrong
last night was some off the wall,
hot sex on a platter, craziness
it was so amazing
and it was nice having a presence other than my shadow here
but I'm deranged on this new re arrangement
I'm losing my head
my commitment to my single family dwelling
was cheated on
because I brought in another
allow them to stay like I live
wake up and see the light
and breath the air made for just one

Please
Does anyone feel like this other than me
trapped in a one fitted environment, hosted by me
violated on my selfish sharing,
a share I never thought of
until I woke up in my routine
and found you were still laying there.......

SHARE

By LeRoy Goetzendanner