IF YOU WANT TO KNOW......19/30 (NPM)

If you want me to express myself
tell me to write it down
as you know by now
if you haven't quite followed me 19 days into my journey
I say things from thought,
not quite vocally, but through my ink

If you ask me whats puzzling me
and I can't produce ink
text me
and let me text back in a form of vent

I'm a man of many words as my name in titled
I have thoughts on my mind
my own thoughts
from my own mind
I condense all thoughts in one side of my cerebral
so if I don't seem to come out voluntary or vocal

ask me to write

put me in the spotlight like an interrogation
make me write all my confessions on paper
I wont avoid the invitation
cause you wont get me to speak,
well unless the stage is before me
but make sure you are ready
for the thoughts that speak out of me
because truthfully,
I can deal with writings, texting, emailing messages
try to expect very little vocal
probably more understanding
and you can read it while I'm front of you
but just don't ask me to tell it

Lets pretend for a moment,
that I'm mute to verbal exchange
and the only way I can express in anyway
is by writing it,
In fact
you find its much interesting
I simply answer, quickly and fluently
and actually put the right words and thoughts into it
so if you get upset and offended
then it was intended
if you smile and feeling this
then this poet knows what he is thinking when he is writing it

but just don't ask me to speak it
cause without thought
I get nervous of course
stutter, with force
no direct eye contact, probably
and what I say may come clearly, hardly
but one thing for sure
you can rely on me,
when responses are accurately with punctuality
written without speech.

That's "if you wanted to know".

By LeRoy Goetzendanner