Don't want to count the X's on the calender from which this began
try not to remember the last time
it was a good time
now I lay here sustaining to abstain
I'm a man
a man that has needs
a masculinity who needs to release
a shyness in the darkness
til the first shine of the moonlight
rises a ragging beast
I prayed on my last day of bonded flesh
that was the day I told my Lord, "Yes"
I ready to surrender and not be part of this mortal mess
waiting for God to create the best
from my rib will come creation
while I lay here to rest
start from day one like the beginning
see if the new her and new I, will pass the test
the second time around at best
I'm saving myself from someone Else's disease
preserving my life for that one to get me at soulful release
dying inside not to cross my faith
shaking like an addict cause I'm lured by the devils bait
not going to give up on you Lord
not going to give up on you my future in the making
not going to give up on you the eternal seeds of creation
I will be worth my wait
I know my wait to the blessings of my faith
my faith is towards my God while he sculpts and creates
creates the likeness of my dreams,
the body and soul of my mate
Its almost coming
I sense her knocking on my door
coming down my chimney
appearing from my lamp
it was worth saving and abstaining
worth to feel my rib come to life that day
I was saving myself
for you,
it was worth saving
saving all of me for all of you
until we finally be one that day!
Saving myself!
BY LeRoy TNW Goetzendanner
I HAVED PRINTED and POSTED This one in my home. I am on a journey of celibacy and it is indeed a cleasning for me. I love the beauty of waking up each morning without having sinned the night before.
ReplyDeleteI love this poem. I am celebrating my X's one day at a time.
Like you said....
"I prayed on my last day of bonded flesh
that was the day I told my Lord, "Yes"
I ready to surrender and not be part of this mortal mess..."
LOVE IT!
Thank you for posting something so very real!
Peace and blessings,
fsb