ITS OK TO MOURN

Its ok to still mourn....


Its been eighteen years to this day,
how is it I can't let go of you leaving me.
Maybe if I didn't go away,
I could have been there to save your
life instead of you dying alone.
The day was so vivid like I'm seeing it,
like I'm living it.
I'm crying just trying to write about it.
I blame you for not telling me when you hurt,
I blame GOD for not putting in his work.
I'm in blame for not being there for you,
I never left the phone or your presence
without telling you, " I love you".

Excuse me if I pause,
cause the reason for this piece,
is strictly towards your cause.
I often go by the place of your passing,
I think back to our connections,
good times and for 3 seconds
I start laughing.
But now I'm alone,
the best half of me has
perished,
the greater love for life, sometimes,
has me in a daze, for days I less cherish.
I still stop by your place to talk to
you,
knowing you no longer live there,
that you are no longer live here.
I even get caught up seeing people who
resemble you,
step up only to face disappointment.


Can you just give me one day LORD,
just one day to have them here,
to have good convo's.
bring them up to par for,
my progressions, transgression,
limited digressions,
while sippin on beer!
Can you give me hope of being
the good person in heart as they were.
Can I make people smile,
like you made me smile!
How can I be complete knowing
you are gone.
Its been too long, and still cry on,
but in me you live on!

Its ok to mourn for you...
but I still miss you......Dad! 

By LeRoy Goetzendanner